Last post for 2010, does that mean I have to change the name of this blog? I did not think this title through!
This is just a short blog to let everyone know my progress over the last few weeks. I got the Hickman tube out of my chest a few weeks ago. It was a small tube tunnelled into one of the major veins near my heart so that they didn’t have to keep finding veins. It was used to take bloods every day, give me medication and fluids and to give me the glorious (!) marrow but as time goes by they don’t check my bloods as regularly (now once a week) and so it was time for it to go. I feel like something is missing, like I’ve forgotten my phone or gloves or something!
I also celebrated my 100 day post transplant day about a week ago. We had some non alcoholic bubbly and a good old celebration for both the 100 days and for the year mark of my mom’s diagnoses. As I said, what a year! My mom is still having treatment which most people forget but hopefully finishing soon enough.
I can’t really put in words what an odd year this has been, from starting off with my mom getting breast cancer and our worlds turning upside down and daily outings consisting of hospital visits as opposed to normal things, to getting a great job I love, and then becoming ill myself it has been a strange one. Some days I wake up and I don’t feel like getting up because of all the shit that I still have to face some of which is so overwhelming I can’t sleep at night with worry. 2011 will be a year of hospital visits again, in fact the next number of years are going to be like that and so the last week of 2010 will be no different to the first week in 2011 in many respects.
However I have to say while I will be delighted to see the back of 2010 I know I am very lucky. Very lucky to be here at all for one, thanks to Clare, very lucky to have spent Christmas at home and not in hospital, very lucky to be fighting this with all my strength, very lucky to have a great mom who is incredible in her strength for both her fight and mine, and very lucky to have such incredible family and friends.
See you all in 2011.
M
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